This blog is here to help me stay accountable for fitness. The middle is my middle age spread and thunder thighs. It is also here to keep it from getting out of hand.
I am or was anorexic. Let's just say that I have issues with food. Most people live to eat. I simply eat to live. I love the feeling of hunger. For me it is a sign of success. One small victory in life. No, I still don't understand it but it is what it is.
Thanks to my loving husband, I am no longer skeletal thin. He makes sure I eat at least two meals a day. Honestly, I do better with about 6 snack sized meals a day than just 2 or 3 meals. He keeps healthy choices available that he knows I will find irresistible. Fresh fruit, vegetables and easy to grab protein bars.
How I went from anorexic to obese I am not sure. One pound at a time. I have no one to blame other than myself.
My goal is not weight loss. That would be too close to dieting which leads right back to all the negative self hate of anna. I am NOT going there. My goal is healthy.
A healthy body and mind.
We do not have scales in the house but I will put my most resent weight here. In June, before we left Idaho my weight on the scales at the gym was 194 lbs. Last weekend on my grandmothers scales 184. I am not sure how accurate her scales are but I do know I have lost. My size 14 jeans went from tight to baggy and now my 12s are fitting looser. I have mommy frump butt after just a few hours of wearing them.
I'll post before pics when I have the band width to do it. For now here is what I have done so far.
Sunday- Travel day
Monday-Rest
Tuesday-P90X Disk one warm up
Wednesday- rest (my Dragon of a husband insisted that i needed another day of rest)
Thursday-15 min on the step
Friday-
Saturday-
I will fill in the other two days when they get here. Short term I would like make sure I move every day. Make fitness a part of my daily routine. That is going to be the hard part. Once it is a habit, the hardest part is done.
Friday. No DVD player but I will not make excuses either. Since it has been a few days since I have done the P90X I am going to combine the free weights with the step. My goal is again 20 minutes. Lets see how much I can do today.
ReplyDeleteWell, Friday was a bust. I got busy in my sewing room and lost track of time. I still call that a success! I wasn't checked out of reality with depression. I was still moving just not for physical fitness.
ReplyDeleteSaturday went much better. I put on the Motown record, set up my 2x4 step, picked up my 3# weights and went to work. WoHoo! ! ! I outlasted the record for the first time. Not all of it was cardio but I kept moving for 20 minutes. Upper body/cardio mix.
I need to find a way to check my weight but I don't want to fall into the anna trap.